Feeling Unworthy to Receive
Friday, November 17, 2017
From The End of Death, Volume Two
Copyright 2017 Nouk Sanchez
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No matter which form the problem appears to take the single remedy is always Love as forgiveness. Every problem can be solved in any heartfelt instant we choose to close the imagined gap between our self and God (Love).
When we’re willing to deep dive into the very cause that lies beneath the smokescreen of fear we will locate the darkest and most primordial gap that spawns all our fears. It goes hand in hand with our unrecognized guilt and fear. This is the fear of God as Love disguised as unworthiness. (More on this in “The Unequivocal Secret that Solves every Problem”)
Here is an ego epidemic, yet another mask appearing as the often unconscious yet highly valued belief that we are unworthy of closing the gap with God – with Love itself. Our fears and the problems they engender play the role of heavily obscuring this underlying choice to value unworthiness (guilt). This epidemic is the disguised unwillingness to receive Love.
The belief in unworthiness is really arrogance in disguise because in valuing it we deny God’s Knowledge of our True Identity as unopposed Love and innocence. In doing so we actively choose to deny God’s Will because in Truth this is “What” we are, and we are nothing other than this. Unworthiness is really denying the fact that God’s Will and our will are one and the same. Unworthiness is the illusory belief that we have a separate will from God which is impossible – and that is why it’s an illusion.
We either choose to be unworthy and therefore willingly reject our only True Identity as the Holy Child of God (Love) – or – we choose to treasure our Identity as Love and would join with it in everyone we encounter. We choose to be unworthy and willingly project that unworthiness as disease, relationship conflict, financial hardship, etc., – or – we choose to join with God as His Will and be impervious to attack.
Unworthiness is simply another form of self-attack. Yet this is just a different expression of guilt. The false-self thrives on it. And as Jesus says, when we attack our self, it will always increase our guilt which reinforces the cycle of self-attack. This is why if we truly desire to be free of debilitating unworthiness, then its imperative we take our unworthiness (the desire to be separate from Love) to Holy Spirit and do the forgiveness process.
“The ego teaches you to attack yourself because you are guilty, and this must increase the guilt, for guilt is the result of attack.” T-13.1.11:1
The unparalleled Truth here is that you are the light of the world. There is absolutely nothing you can do that will change this. If you don’t know this deeply in every now moment it is because you have made a choice to ignore it. But your decision not to recognize and embody your True Identity does not change the absolute fact that you are the light of the world.
Both the false-self and its guilt do not exist. God knows you now as whole and blameless. Anything you believe you are guilty of has never appeared on God’s Loving Radar. And while you feel unworthy you leave your joyous place and purpose empty. Your function is to be the light of the world.
“…your function here is to be the light of the world, a function given you by God. It is only the arrogance of the ego that leads you to question this, and only the fear of the ego that induces you to regard yourself as unworthy of the task assigned to you by God Himself. The world’s salvation awaits your forgiveness, because through it does the Son of God escape from all illusions, and thus from all temptation. The Son of God is you.” W-64.3.
“You are altogether irreplaceable in the Mind of God. No one else can fill your part in it…” … “To accept your littleness [is] arrogant, because it means that you believe your evaluation of yourself is truer than God’s.” T-9.VIII.10:1-2,9
Valuing unworthiness or fear is the false-self’s armor-plated defense against returning our awareness to the changeless Love and innocence of our being as the incorruptible “I AM.”
Remember this – we cannot close this gap (appearing as unworthiness) while we still cherish un-forgiven grievances with our brothers. We will not be willing to drop our defense of unworthiness while we still hold a brother captive to sin. While we judge another as unworthy of total forgiveness (unconditional Love) then we will reject it for our self. We will be fearful to accept complete healing for our self. In Truth we cannot accept complete forgiveness unless we are willing to include those whom we resent.
Withholding forgiveness from another is really the most painful act of self-rejection. It is the refusal to receive the Love that we are.
We cling to unworthiness as protection from Love. Most of this remains unconscious until we’re willing to deep dive into some comprehensive forgiveness of those present or past whom we have not genuinely released through forgiveness. We will usually find that these grievances came from special relationships where it seemed the cost of love was pain and loss.
How on earth can we possibly relinquish our own unworthiness while we still cherish intensely defended grievances? We just will not open to receive the Love we so deeply long for while we dwell in a state of contraction and defense.
If we hold just one person captive to blame then we agree to punish our self. Love and guilt cannot coexist! Love and blame cannot coexist. Love and pain cannot coexist. Accept one and we deny the other. Everyone including our self is always entirely blameless.
Laying Down our Defenses
There is always just one gap to close in any moment. Regardless of the particular problem, are we willing to close the gap with our most cherished and Holy Self? This Self is shared with every Child of God.
Are we willing to suspend judgment or doubt and open our heart to breathe in God’s Love and innocence? It only takes one Holy Instant for our awareness to be returned to Love as the infinite safety of our incorruptible innocence. And in this the holiest of all instants, when we show up for our Self, the Atonement is received as the sacred undoing of what never was.
Are we willing to lay down our defenses to Love and healing – as fear, guilt, unworthiness, judgment, pain, disease, conflict, etc? Are we willing to close the only gap there is, the single cause of every conceivable problem in the body and the world? Are we willing then to forgive the single cause of our upset – our self for having unknowingly used a person or problem to attack our self?
Jesus tells us that the very first obstacle to peace (Love) that we willingly use as a defense is the desire to get rid of peace. Doesn’t that sound completely crazy? Nevertheless that’s exactly what the false-self does. And the most common block we face is our own fierce resistance to, or even rejection of “closing the gap.” For the ego it’s much more enticing to keep the guilt by projecting it onto others as relationship conflict, onto the body as pain, sickness or weight issues, or onto our finances as scarcity.
While we continue to project this un-relinquished guilt (un-forgiveness) we end up keeping the guilt and the cycle simply persists until the ego attains its final goal for us as physical death. Its insane continuation is fueled by our stubborn refusal to “close the gap” within via the Atonement.
Fear is not involuntary and neither is unworthiness. They are both choices we make. They could not possibly occur unless we valued them. Holy Spirit cannot heal the cause and symptoms of fear and unworthiness until we are honestly willing to give them up. It requires vigilance to choose again each time we’re tempted to fall for their hypnotic spell.
Remember this; God has never changed His Mind about you regardless of the self-judgments you perceive.
“God does not change His Mind about you, for He is not uncertain of Himself.” … “When anything threatens your peace of mind, ask yourself, “Has God changed His Mind about me?” T-10.in.3:1,9
The instant we truly desire the awareness of our undivided and incorruptible innocence is the Holy Instant in which it is returned to our awareness as the miracle. The moment peace is felt is the instant in which fear (and its imaginary effects) is replaced by Love. We either want fear or we are eager for Love to return to our awareness. Every single moment we experience is imbued by our choice either to Love or to fear.
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