Copyright 2014 Nouk Sanchez
From The End of Death Series
In this phase of my journey, I recognize clearly that I am rapidly approaching the core of the whole ego thought system. I am seeing and feeling the stark insanity of its obsessive desire for separation in so many varied forms. The different “forms” of its belief in fear, suffering and death do not matter because they are all effects of the same distorted belief: that I am separate from my Source, split off from all-encompassing Love itself and banished from the “I AM”.
I am currently feeling the one undeniable cause of all suffering: guilt. This is a guilt that seems to transcend by far the personal guilt that I had become so accustomed to in the past. This seemingly universal form of guilt tries desperately to hide itself from the light of my Holy Self’s awareness. And because I’ve withdrawn the ego’s projection of guilt (attack) from others, the past, the world and God, the only place left for it to hide now is in its projection onto the body and whatever is left of my mistaken identity.
I liken this time to the period Jesus speaks of in the Course; this is the third step where we’re asked to be vigilant only for God and His Kingdom. We are His Kingdom so it’s learning to be vigilant against all illusions that appear to threaten us including conflict, sickness, pain, scarcity and any other forms of Lovelessness. This is the last step we take before God takes the final leap for us.
A huge part of Jesus’ deeper teaching on literal healing via miracles necessitates the willingness and desire to see only what is real. However this means we must learn to recognize the unreal first otherwise we won’t be able to forgive it and thereby heal. It is essential to develop an acute sense of discernment especially when someone or something seems to trigger us. And this requires now moment awareness and discipline to observe how we feel and react to the ego’s illusory phenomena. These observations will reveal our own mistaken beliefs that call for forgiveness.
In accepting the Atonement, the miracle, we look past the ego’s appearances and accept the Truth which is Christ’s Vision, to replace what the body’s senses report. Thus we join God’s Will and claim our eternally spotless and indestructible innocence. Undivided innocence is Grace. And it’s this state of Grace that ensures our safety and invulnerability. With guilt gone there is nothing remaining in our mind to call upon punishment (ego). NOTE: For the Forgiveness/Atonement process go to: https://takemetotruth.org/nouks-blog/the-seven-essential-principles-in-quantum-forgiveness/
To heal the greatest split in our mind it’s important to acknowledge up front all that the ego desires to keep hidden from our awareness. For as long as this split remains unseen and un-relinquished then we will continue to suffer whilst remaining oblivious to a glaring incongruence.
Through the ego we unwittingly agree to the impossible. We believe there are two equally true realities, the ego’s world of suffering and God’s all-encompassing Love. We accept that pain and God co-exist or even worse, that death and God do. In these erroneous beliefs we agree to insanity. We mistakenly consent that the ego’s pain paradigm is either as true as God’s Love or in most cases such as in disease, loss, pain and death, even more powerful than God’s certain Reality which is Love without opposite.
God’s Love cannot be threatened. The reason for this is that God’s Love is all that exists. Fear and its effects do not exist no matter how seemingly convincing they appear to be.
We only have to look at the ego’s seeming carnage and ask our self this question: “Do I still believe that pain, sickness, conflict and death can overcome God’s undivided and unopposed Will and Reality?” If we do believe this then we value it and therefore will continue to manifest it. Our will is as powerful as God’s and if we choose to believe the ego’s effects or symptoms are real then we must still desire them. We value them in order to retain one deeply guarded secret; they protect us from awakening to the incorruptible Love that we are and have.
This cannot be repeated often enough: There is only one Power and it is God’s Love and dominion regardless of what our body’s senses appear to report. The ego’s illusory appearances are just that, appearances only and not reality! We cannot value two diametrically opposed and mutually exclusive thought systems in our mind without experiencing severe suffering as a result. When we catch our self believing in adversity, pain or conflict then that is the cue revealing that we must still be valuing it. To believe something is to value it.
The Miracle Cancels out the Ego’s Interference
Jesus tells us in Chapter Three of A Course in Miracles:
“It is impossible to conceive of light and darkness or everything and nothing as joint possibilities. They are all true or all false. It is essential that you realize your thinking will be erratic until a firm commitment to one or the other is made.” T-3.II.1:3-5
“Innocent or true perception means that you never misperceive and always see truly. More simply, it means that you never see what does not exist, and always see what does.” T-3.II:5-6
The miracle does nothing, all it does is undo therefore it cancels out the ego’s interference and its seeming symptoms of suffering. These symptoms appear to be real and immediate effects yet Jesus tells us that these “appearances” of suffering are already long gone. Only our unconscious desire to retain guilt makes seeming adversity so real and present.
The miracle cancels out our mistaken choice for guilt, fear and attack. And if we allow it, the miracle also cancels out the ego’s effects, the illusory suffering it appeared to cause. It wipes out the memory of pain to restore the very real and present now moment memory of God’s healing and Love. This is the by-product of accepting undivided peace, of accepting our guiltlessness.
The miracle does not add anything. It simply takes away the obstruction, the filter or veil of fear that previously obscured the perfect reality of what is and was always there. God’s uninterrupted Love is all that is alive and real within us. The Real World or Happy Dream is here now and we will experience this the moment we desire to see only this. But to dwell in this state of Grace, we must want to embrace and embody God’s Knowledge of “Who” we are over and above the ego’s sickly evaluation of who we are.
“The way to correct distortions is to withdraw your faith in them and invest it only in what is true. You cannot make untruth true. If you are willing to accept what is true in everything you perceive, you let it be true for you.” … “If you perceive truly you are cancelling out misperceptions in yourself and in others simultaneously. Because you see them as they are, you offer them your acceptance of their truth so they can accept it for themselves. This is the healing that the miracle induces.” T-3.6:1-3,5-7
Recall that everything we seem to see is an idea in our mind. The state of our reality is determined by perceiving either through the mind of fear or the Mind of Love without opposite. True healing removes the blocks to seeing what is already here which is God’s glorious dream; the Real World.
“All the effects of guilt are here no more. For guilt is over. In its passing went its consequences, left without a cause. Why would you cling to it in memory if you did not desire its effects?” T-28.I.2:1-4
Ego Warns of Annihilation; Spirit Reveals the Joy of Salvation
So this is where I find myself right now, experiencing the wild flip-flops and stark contrasts between the ego’s obsession with guilt/fear and the Holy Spirit’s deep inner peace, safety and joy. It’s an outrageously unnerving experience as I come to see just how vicious the ego thought system is. I feel like a soldier now. It’s all dark and seemingly quiet. And I recognize my enemy (guilt as self-attack) is kept alive by the darkness that I have allowed.
Holding the brilliant Light of Truth in my shaky hand, I see that I have finally crossed the ego’s vast frontier. I have approached what feels to me to be the “front line” of attack. Now I am on my knees crawling through that last section of the deep, dark underground shaft that leads to fear’s crypt and headquarters. I am just about there.
I see the foreboding signs of imminent death screeching at me as I approach its heavily reinforced doorway. My heart is pounding in my chest. I stop for an instant and join with Christ. I hear a soft but reassuring Voice. It reminds me that “I AM the light of the world.” “My holiness reverses all the laws of the world and that I am under no laws but God’s.” “I am as God created me.” And finally… “God is in my mind. Therefore all that God sees through my mind… is already healed in this instant. Amen.”
My trembling hand suddenly becomes calm and steady. The Power of the “I AM” lifts the lantern now and I gasp for breath as I witness the ego’s heavily armed sentinels swiftly fall away before my eyes. This doorway of terror offers not the slightest bit of resistance to my entry now. I have no excuses left.
And here it is. It is here now. This is the grandest of all moments in time, the one that I have been resisting since the seeming separation millions of years ago in the illusion of time.
Here, before me, lay the disarmed central chamber of fear and death itself, the seeming threat of eternal damnation, of certain oblivion. Another step forward and I will be face to face with a terror greater than death itself.
All my human senses scream at me to retreat, to go back! But I remember that I am under no laws but God’s now. I pledge exclusive allegiance to the Christ now. I will not be tempted to doubt! Still holding my sacred lantern steady and high, I enter where few have dared to tread since the beginning of time. This is a slow motioned step into the blackness of seeming oblivion. I hear my own voice echoing “I am vigilant only for God and His Kingdom!” as I take this final step on my own.
Unexpectedly, there is a blinding flash and I cannot see or feel a thing. Where is the body? I know that I am here…but there seems to be no body. Yet I am aware of the sound of millions of years of history being rewound at high speed. And I am aware of being transported at the speed of light: all this in less than one second of time.
All I see is light! There is nothing but white, shimmering, beautiful light!
Suddenly, I am aware that I am no longer holding the lantern while standing here in the midst of the ego’s central dream, its core hiding place, the very source of the vast dream of separation. Yet there is only light, the darkness has vanished.
What happened to the ego’s sinister threats and where has its deathly darkness gone? Where is this guilt and fear that I swore I would never wake up from?
Light must replace darkness. Fear, guilt, suffering and death never did exist. I only dreamt them in darkness. When I finally embraced the indestructible light that “I AM”, the darkness disappeared. After all the darkness was substance less…it was simply the lack of light.
And here I see it. I feel it. I know it. There is only God’s Light of Love – literally. The lantern itself was not even necessary for this final and epic re-Union. “I AM” the light! “I AM” the Love of God! I cannot be something else. Nothing but the Love of God exists. And “I AM” this Love along with you. Please open your heart to rest in our shared innocence… come join me here.
NOTE: The End of Death, Volume One, is available via www.EndOfDeath.com